Getting over the shock

I was so upset after we got the call that I could maybe have cancer in my other breast. I didn't know all the in's and out's of breast cancer, but I knew that was a very very bad sign. I didn't want Dean to go to work, please don't leave me! All I knew at this point was going over results, getting a right breast mammogram and ultrasound and maybe a core biopsy AGAIN! I kept getting phone calls for appointments: DR.Scrath results Tuesday, May 20th, Mammogram Tuesday May 21. As the weekend progressed towards Monday(deans departure date), I was very sad and really in shock. I started to push the fear back into my mind and went into survival mode. Dean has to go to work, I will have days without him, like I have before. I have gone through 10 years of fibromyalgia, had a miscarriage alone, been up all night with a baby and a toddler alone, been a lonely only child, lived on my own for years...I can do THIS!! I am not really ALONE!! God is with me, my friends, family, my children...So Monday came and we got Dean back to work. James was extra loving and this was the day that I noticed Sarah was protecting her own heart...Dean, my best friend, my heart was there emotionally every step, letting me rest, feeding the kids, doing dishes, telling me we have to have faith, praying over me and telling me how grateful he was for me.To trust each other the way we do is so priceless.